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[thelionharted]

James is quite probably flopped on a couch in one of the rooms at Grimmauld Place, morosely studying the ceiling. He's certainly not going to seek out Lily -- though he might try and find Sirius later, once he's finished nursing his metaphorical wounds. Anyway, if anyone would like to find James, he can be found.



ooc: Yes, open rp post for the angsting James. If you poke him, poke carefully.

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She's been cleaning because that is what Lily does when she is upset. She moves. She had read for a good long while before she had grown restless and with Kreacher (presumably) at Hogwarts after Sirius and Harry silenced the portrait of Mrs. Black she had felt that she should do something.

She wasn't expecting to see James, sprawled across the sofa as if he owned it, there and she studied him a long while before speaking.

"Hullo, you."

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He glances up and flops back down on the sofa, scowling at the ceiling now.

"Hallo."

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"Should I ask what's gotten you in such a sulk?"

She crossed her arms, self-conscious, and moved to sit on the arm of his couch.

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"Should I give you a guess or can you figure it out yourself?" He remarks to the ceiling. "Oh, wait. You can go ask Snivellus."

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"Don't use that name, James." Lily snarled. "What happened, then?"

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"I'll damn well use it if he deserves it!" He sits up, glaring. "Harry told me what's been going on with you two."

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"He doesn't deserve it." She spat, and it was suddenly fifth year again, she was suddenly angry and defensive. "Oh? And what's been going on with us two?"

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"He does too." James may not be (quite) as arrogant as he was fifth year, but he's certainly wishing he could hex Snape right now. "He's in love with you."

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"He deserves to be called such a disgusting nickname because he's in love with me?" Lily rolled her eyes. "Oh, please, James. That's worse than 'it's more the fact he exists'."

"So what if he is?"

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James scrubbed a hand through his hair, suddenly looking a little lost. "I -- are you in love with him, Lils?"

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Lily opened her mouth and closed it several times as she tried to think of a suitable answer, and her voice dropped to something barely above a whisper. "Yes. I do."

"But I haven't...done anything. I haven't been...unfaithful. That's the reason all of this, this fighting, started. Fidelity and right and wrong and marriage..."

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"....Oh." His voice was quiet, and after a few seconds he stood up and headed for the door. "I -- I've gotta go think, alright?"

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She was crying now, her shoulders were shaking as if she had just done some great sin. A hand moved to her mouth and then wiped at her eyes. She was a Gryffindor. She was strong and brave.

"I love you, too, James. That's why it's so hard."

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"Yeah, well. You know I love you." He's headed upstairs, presumably to floo to Remus and Tonks' house, or maybe just trying to get away from Lily. "But I've got to think a bit."